Just Do It...

Friends...

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 23:15:20 GMT

...what are friends?

sometimes i feel that i'm just being used
maybe they really don't deserve to be called friends.
being nice isn't all that good because people take advantage of you
being nice AND submissive is even worse.
add friendliness...might as well sigh.

*sigh*

it's like one day they'll come to you asking for something or wanting something from you and then next time it's like...they're a totally different person.

iunno. these days it's hard to find a real friend who you could talk to and they'll listen to you, who you could cry to and share secrets with, who you could hangout with alot even with alot of things going on around like school or work.

are friends really just for "benefits"?
the hell then...

i think friends should be family, to love, to care about, to console, to talk to, to hangout with, to joke around with, to laugh with, to cry with, to make good and lasting memories with.

lately...or more likely....it's been all wacked up, there's no more hangout time because you can just chat with them anyways, or text them, or whatever technology is there.

heh. i wish there were more social time together rather than just through technology. that way you could really see your "friends" smile and laugh when they say "lol", "rofl", and "hahaha". that way you could really see them sad instead of just ":(" or "=(". that way you could really have contact with them, see them, understand them.

=/

debut and other random stuff

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 23:13:03 GMT

making arrangements for this debut is so...eh, i don't feel like it. initially i never wanted a debut party, all i wanted was a nice family-friends dinner at a nice italian restaurant. but i've been hearing people tell me, "hey alwyn! you should have a debut!" also mom and especially dad wanted to throw a debut party for me because i'm their "only daughter" so eh, being me i said "ah sure" *doubts running around my head*

so now i have to make invitations, decorations, giveaways, a speech, invite people to come, call them up, calm my mom, follow her every command so she won't bug me to the point where it's just ridiculous, and a whole bunch of preparation stuff. i'm so lazyyy now a days, someone should give me a nice punch on the face.

ah, nothing grand, but at least and hopefully it'll be fun for all.
i'm at least thankful for the people helping me do these stuff and for the people accepting to be a part of the programs.
sooooo it should be fun, right?

i should be more optimistic. (ned i blame you and your pesimissm :P )
hmmmm i am really xD
mom, and alot of my relatives, liked the idea of me having this debut. so they're all hyped up and wanted to contribute things. i thank them for it :D
i never knew that i'm this loved that people want to help and add in things for preparations. like how my tita's were like "ahh! i'll rent the place don't worry about it," "i'll pick up a nice cake you don't have to pay for it," "i'll cook some of the food! you'll like them i know." if it wasn't for them i wouldn't be doing all these stuff and i'll be doing nothing on that "special" day, which i really don't mind, all i would want then is just...stated earlier.

but eh, sigh iunno, it's been really wierd how people change. i've reflected my life here a while back, and i've seen myself changed somehow, i believe it's the influence of new culture and having to speak english all the time (?) and prolly more. i've changed from being too lively and being too outgoing to being boring and being no-fun-to-be-with or no-fun-to-talk-to. college isn't helping at all. my dad complains about how i always study and not go outside and play or do exercises. lol last year he complained about how i'm like a tomboy and i dress up with just a shirt, pants, tennis shoes, and a pony tail everyday, and that why i don't dress up more lady-like and "girly." uuuhhhh so what now, have i dress "girly" now? -.- blah. so many things changed. oh well. it's life ne?

ah i should shut up now before i get even more random. take care everyone! :D

FINALS DONE foos!

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 18:10:28 GMT

yay yay yay!
soooo far everything's been good and nice, 'cept for the weather.
but i'm happy today :D and hoping that i'll still be at the end.

HAPPY 10 MONTHS love!
i wuv u

finals done and now i can't wait till i see matty again =D
being separated for too long is not nice =(
sigh. i just wonder what will happen when he graduate hs next year and go to UT Austin =O
long distance relationship begins.
ah. oh well. we'll see ne?
but i'll miss him so so oh so much.

ah @_@ just remembered to go buy christmas presents *eye shift*

11 more days till christmas! yay!

annoyed

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 18:18:21 GMT

ugh!
well i'll post something later...
library right now.
just passing time :D

Late Update

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 17:12:24 GMT

last Thursday and Friday:

ah well these two days are pretty fun =D
lemme see what happened:
THURSDAY
> Baked a cake for PJ's birthday celebration (i failed at baking cakes. shhh. but i'm happy the kiddies liked it =D).
> Ate a whole lot of food >.<
> TURKEY AND STUFFING! and and and strawberry cake and...all the other foods!
> hit my knee hard at my uncle's coffee table.
> passed out and all that goes with it. >.>
> played with kuya's/tito's on wii play.
> went to my mother's side to celebrate gobble gobble day.
> SLEEP OVER at risa's house =D
> played melee from 11pm to......
.....FRIDAY....
> 3am
> woke up pretty late, had brunch, pet the dogs! =D
> played melee for 4 hours before going to justin's house.
(NOTE: when playing melee and risa is hyper....you all will get pwnd)
> walked to justin's house.
> dinner was awsome.
> played vid games with friends.
> went home with matt.
> doing....hw...right now...~_~;;
> tomorrow leave for galveston.

ahhh so much for that......
i'm trying to avoid hw. srsly, this is my holiday break right here. >.>
winter break i have classes =O

can't wait till sunday! iceskating with michelle and aaron and risa =D

aigh foos.
peace out!

today's note

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 03:04:33 GMT

hmmm i feel like i'm treating this note thing as a diary. eh. not.
it's just a way of passing time because of boredom.
today is pretty much a not-do-hw-and-chillax-day. lol. today was actually pretty fun and ok.
:: felt alot better
:: ate lunch with gennie at uncle lee's cafe (i still think that panda express is better than ulc!!! sarah! hahahaha..if you remember what i'm talking about. but eh.)
:: we both got to class 17 mins. late >.> (sorry i eat slow ;o;)
:: gave chris fortune cookies. he got one fortune that was really funny, it said: "Please pay more attention." (inside joke). well me and gennie both laughed bc the fortune told him that. and he should pay attention to class! hah! anyways...
:: after class me and gennie went to eldridge park and played on the play ground like a pair of little kids, walked around, talk about life and such.
:: went home and checked out my cellphone, saw that matt called, had an interesting conversation.
:: matt(, roxy, and jeager ) came over to visit and drop by something oh so sweet ♥
:: gennie came back and hangged out at my house. played guitar and listen to Huu play and sing.
:: watched aaron play resident evil 4 on the wii.

ok i should stop now.........no one cares about these stuff xD
i'm just bored....heh.

awi acquired an immortal blue rose from a prince. (lol.)

♥

SAMUI!!!!

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 11:35:07 GMT

i-t i-s s-o co-c-o-l-d t-o-d-a-y.....
*shivers*
>.<

everyone hopes that school would be out bc there's the sleet right abouve and under houston. lol. and now it kinda passes us now. @_@ man....i need a break. so i could practice and learn some more stuff in corel and in my tablet.

wheeeeeeeeee....
i got my tablet.
6x6 wacom intuos3.
i so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

>.<

WAH!
COLD!

belated

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 04:08:41 GMT

wahehehhe!!!
i wish i took pics on my b-day when i was in planet zero..but unfortunately i don'thave a camera and i can only snuck out pics from my friend's...er...risa's friends' cameras. but i'm not to close with them to even just ask to take a pic...but oh well....that was past.

@_@

today is tita monette's bday! happy b-day po! ^_^

i wish we could watch a movie with her. hehehe...but i'm broke. ;o;

oh well.

kk.
gtg and figure out my life.

Allen/Rabi LUV

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 15:28:31 GMT

here. a little christmas present for my dear cousin. (sorry if it is just a pic. my stupid scanner is to small for my overly large bristol paper to fit in. ^^; my apologies).

i'll try to scan it again. (the scanning-the-paper-in-four-small-parts didn't work...it just looked weird when i attached all of the pics together O_o...or maybe i'm just bad at doing it + my impatience.)

heh.

but yeah. HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN GUYS! ^_^

been a while

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 21:32:54 GMT

*sigh*
i have not been updating much here, nor in my xanga and my myspace or friendster...or any blog stuff that i have.....

no reason actually...

or actually it is because i'm tired of having so many of these that i think it is stupid and pointless updating and such ~_~

as if anyone reads mine anyways.....tch.

neways.

just wanted to great a happy new year! and erm..belated merry christmas! (to anyone who reads this >.<)

ja!

restrain me...

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 03:19:13 GMT

SHAT!

someone really need to slap me and look over me. (haha......~_~ why do i want to be spoiled?) i need a restraint. seriously. anime and manga is taking over my soul. i can't seem to be doing what i am SUPPOSED TO DO! and i'm hating myself because of it. i hate this about myself........*sigh* having no self-control...........=( it's pathetic of me.....=/

i need to do my portofolio. i promise that i would finish 70% of it by the end of the break. and do the rest on the weekends till december 10 (my last day to draw). [december 15 is the deadline]

i really need to got serious >.<

please restrain me from reading manga and/or watch anime......

bitch-slapps will do. shout at me. aim me. disturb me. keep me away from my manga folder as much as possible.....

i know i'm the only one that is responsible for my actions.......i'm trying my best to restrain myself ~_~

it's ben 2 weeks now since i've been so lethargic and tired and not doing wht i really am supposed to do. fcuk. MY PORTOFOLIO!!! I NEEDTHA FINISH IT! AND I NEEDTHA AT LEAST STUDY! DAMN YOU GODDESS OF MANGA AND ANIME FOR GIVING ME THIS CURSE AND ENTHRALED ME WITH THE MAGNIFICENCE OF MANGA AND ANIME (did i even made any sense or wrong spellings? i don't even care about that right now)

gee.....it's really hard......for a person like me........>.<

tasukette! ;.;

*goes back to reading eerie queerie*
oh God help me destroy this obsession. it's too much....to overated....to overwhleming......too much.....

hmmmmm....

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 05:26:39 GMT

man...it's been a while since i've been to my journals. i've been quite busy lol.....;D
anyways. i'm tired so here (copies...pastes)

I am officially in-love with HP slash *heart**heart*

**sighs blissfully**

Tempus Fugit is a wonderful hp slash fanfic. i wonder who really did it. i praise him/her for the wonderful work of art. although it distracted me SOOOO much this week. i can barely concetrate on my studies, but fortunately i'm currently ok with the lessons and stuff at school. it's just that..i get distracted so much because i wanted to read this fic and finish it >.< two more chapters left. (I think this fic made me almost sick too. considering the fact that i was wide awake on monday, reading this with copious amounts of facination and excitement, hah! and slept at 2 something ish am. ^____^ it was wroth it....it made my days worth while. lmao)

ned-chan, i should forbid you, as of for now, on giving me fanfuckingtastic fanfics that are happiy given to her by her friend or found it somewhere in the millions of fanfics overflowing at the site fanfiction.net. lol. BUT! please give/suggest me more in my thanksgiving break! lol! (hmmm i've just rememberd...i still owe you a drawing......and come to think of it...I OWE ALOT OF DRAWINGS FOR MANY PEOPLE! @_@...i need to level up my skills faster >.<....seriously.)

harryxdraco ..... i know it's slash and crack (and probably disturbing to ya'll) but the writting is just to good to be ignored.

fin.

EDIT!

YOSH! i finally finished it! TEMPUS FUGIT. man how i loved that fic. next was uzumaki-sams's and co. lol. i wonder who else can write this great. lol.

but i think i do not need distractions anymore. i really need to focus more on acads stuff >.< although i still have a big caving fro anime and manga. it's funny how i spent time finishing this fic and slowly finishing mangas/animes ^^;;;;; i really need to catch up in both of my anime/manga world and to my reality. lolz.

*sigh*

(at least somehow when i read this, my fucking problems go away for the meantime and ephemerally make me forget about them)

Superhero day?.... or COSTUME/COSPLAY day?

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 20:51:09 GMT

WARNING:
SUPER LONG ENTRY AHEAD (DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO DO THE LJ CUT, SORRY)

3....

2...

1..

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haha this week is fun, school event-wise. acads is not going that well for me, maybe just for this week, since it's homecoming/spirit week and every day we have a school spirit event thing.

Spirit Week:
Monday - Twin day (didn't participate since i can't find anyone to be my twin, me and my friend was supposed to dress up as L, improvised baggy jeans and white long-sleeved shirt, but she had ramadan that day so she didn't go to school, and I didn't dress up then.)
Tuesday - Retro day (decided not to participate. I don't have retro clothes. I don't want to improvise. I don't want to look like an idiot wearing some old clothes that i found just at the corner of my closet >.> lol)
Wednesday - CRAZY HAIR DAY! woot! i like that day, it was fun. I colored my hair blue XD. hehe. I tried to spike my hair but it didn't worked out well, bc my brother's hair gel was a UPOS, i think they just bought it in a dollar store. ^^; lol. that's why it didn't work well >.o
Thursday - SUPER HERO DAY! *cough cough* actually, i think there was 5 of us, me and other anime people dressed up as naruto characters. lmao. i was sasuke, one guy was kakashi (didn't meet him bc i was lazy ^^; but i saw him though XD), one guy dressed up as the sound character (forgot his name, the one that is skinny i think @_@, oh well), one guy was gaara, a girl(hmmmm...her name was cindy) dressed up as ino, and one guy dressed up as an anbu with the black cloak thing (not the sexy looking outfit XD XP lol). HAHA! today was fuuuuuun. XD
Friday - Spirit day (wear our bronco shirts ... i forgot what seniors are supposed to wear @_@ uh oh.... >.>)

Anyways. yeah. today was like a cosplay day. haha. oh yea! i forgot to include the guy that dressed up as link (cute outfit XD)...lol. other people dressed up as the power rangers, ninja turtles, powerpuff girls, marvel people, hell boy (josh did a good job on doing hell boy), spongebob, and mario and luigi (man. those two were awsome, frikkin funny XD). OH YEAH! HAHA! my chemistry classmate, peter, dressed up as my third year english teacher (ROFLMAO) H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S.

hehe. i'm actually happy when i made this. I STILL HAVE MY SEWING POWERS!!! MYAHAHA!!!! lol.

I actually recieved alot of stares and comments and shouts...and sasuke fangirls screaming for my attention O_O holyshit. lmao. and two guys HATING me, that everytime i see them they'll shout or whisper at my ear: "I HATE YOU!" ^^;;; ...but this was a good day.

hmmm...sadly i don't have a digi cam anymore (since summer ;o;) so i didn't took pictures of the *cough* cosplayers *cough* haha. i didn't get to see ino and gaara too *sad*. The only thing that we naruto people wer lacking were the weapons and A NARUTO PERSON! (but sadly he is in another school). I made two shuriken origamis though XD. most anime people liked my costume. man. i worked (with my mom) so hard on making this.....LAST NIGHT! lmao. I just bought 2 normal navy blue shirts, red and white fabric paints, white bandages, and sandals. LOL! and me and my mom slept at 1 30 am. hahahah.....i woke up at 4 45 ish just to shower so i could take the blue stuff out of my head, since last night i still have my cast on and my broken arm was still hurting ;o; but at least i'm glad that the cast is gone! no more robot arms XD.

Speaking about broken arms. Actually i accidentally broke/twist/sprained my wrist this monday. It friggin hurt ;o; I was just getting the super-heavy-container-with-two-big-fishies-and-its-soup insidethe narrow spaced steamer, then when i lifted the food my wrist got displaced. @_@ so yeah. i was eating with one hand, took a shower with one had, then called my dad and asked him if he had bandages somewhere in his room. he asked me what happened and i told him what i stated above. He hanged up and after an hour he and mom and pj wnet back home from the PT at tito alexis' house, then he brought me over there too, Ate Gracia was the PT, and told me that she needs to cure my wrist before the swealing gets worst. I was squirming on my seat when she was doing PT stuff to my arm ;o; i was in total pain. T_T but i guess it was worth it. for the past three days i was wearing a cast. right now i don't have a cast anymore. I'M FREE!!!hehehe.

anyways...i ran out of things to say....unless you guys want to know about my acads......hmmmmm.....i'm tired...and i have loads of things to catch up (since last night i didn't do any HW nor study anything bc i was making my sasuke costume. lol) and study ~_~ whoooohoooo! go me!

JA NE MINNA!

College major

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 21:53:36 GMT

I just got home from the Art Institue of Houston's Open House. Their campus is ok (small) for a private art college/institute, and it's awsome that it is accredited like other famous colleges and universities, and the professors are...well for now i can say that in the graphic design program, the professor is a nice and an awsome woman, quite timid too; @_@ but in the media arts and animation, the professor is quite a hater, lol. He's an anti-anime person. plus. when you talk to him, he's actually kinda scary, hehe, maybe because i don't really know him well >.o.

There's one thing that I don't quite like in the school, it is that you don't have all of the Ai programs, bc there are different branches, and every branch has a different curriculums and/or programs. There's no inllustration and other categories of animation in AI houston XP darn. but oh well.

I've (slightly) decided to major in graphic design rather than in media arts and animation. >.< these two are friggin confussing me. and i've thought about this for a looooooooooong time. if you major in graphic design, in the real world, you can have a starting salary rate of 36K USD a year, as costrasts to media arts and animation, the starting salary rate is just about 25K USD a year. PLUS! it has alot of competition (haha...erm...almost, well MOST art majors are very competitive). So i guess graphic design will be the best for me. I can still study when i get a job ^_~ haha. I'll prolly study animation online or at the college if i have enough time and saved enough money for the tuition. XD 3 years worth of animation studies costs more or less 73K plus, plus other expenses (same tuition rate on graphic design)

anyways...i haven't done any of my hw. besides that sudoku puzzle for pre-cal. XD easy daily grade for a 100. yay! thanks ms. lebold. hehehe :D

;o; so much stuff to do!!!
*sigh...right nowoni-con is still continuing..and until tomorrow as well. *sigh* i can't go.....;o;

i'm off now.

damnation...i KNEW it!

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 22:51:28 GMT

agh! i knew that this is comming:
going to Oni-con WAS GNIKCUF CANCELED! ;o;
my ride to go there doesn'st wanna come anymore because we oth need to get a ride home by another friend, who uneventually don't wanna come as well because he's broke, (er...me too. kinda...BUT STILL!) ;o; curses.

Sigh.

what a bad thing.
but i knew and i feel this cocnlusion to happen sooner or later, >.> am i really that cursed. that those who surround me gets cursed as well?
damn it all.

(i just HOPE we do get to do to the Anime Matsuri NEXT year, april 27-29. pppsssshhhhhh...or go to dallas and have a four hour drive just to go there and enjo their wonderful A-con on may and/or june XP)

GAH!

Today...

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 03:03:30 GMT

Earlier, all clubs and orgs were canceled.
Everyone (well most of the students) ran to go to their respective buses.
Eventually it was raining hell-like, and unfortunately we all got drenched in the rain >.>
The bayou (sp) and the hollow patio got filled with icky rain water.
WE HAD A POOL READY MADE THIS MORNING TO! lmao.
When the bus arrived at the bus ramp we all saw that huge amount of rain water, creating a pool in the most hollow part of the patio at the back of the school. gladly i don't go to that direction to go inside the school. lol. almost got myself dropped over that way @_@. or so i think i did. >.o anyways...i'm delirious.

Sigh. got home and did stuff.
Went back to school to watch a play: "The Mouse That Roared" (it was good btw ^^)
Ate cookies and chunked down a cup of sprite @_@
My tummy hurts >.<
constipated. >.o
Got home just now at 9 45 pm.
i don't wanna do hw. screw it.

GAAAHHH!!!
JA! till the next post my folks.

FREE?

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 19:34:22 GMT

O...K...
SAT IS DONE!
I'M DONE WITH IT!
I'M NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE!
IT'S NOW OR NEVER....er....well...it's now that i should and should do a good job, and boost my 1400 to at least a 1500 ;o;. or just deal with the 1400 wah! nuuuuuuu.....

but anyways. cosplay? hair? josh's dad is going to cut my hair DAW. hopefully this day or tomorrow >.< and i just need to buy hair wax too. *crossesfingers* and and and. ZOMG! CLOTHES!!! ~_~ i need to buy the white longsleeved shirt and dark faded baggy like pants. budget will be $20-30 >.<
haha....cheap cosplaying. but i still need money...how gay.

COSPLAY!

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 01:06:55 GMT

cospaly DAW! sabi ko! haha....last year nakakainis dahil hindi ako nakapunta.

BUT THIS YEAR! i wanna make sure if i can go. i mean I CAN GO, it's just that i need a ride to go there and back. ;o; and as of now, i asked a friend if he could drive me and the others there XD haha. since he and his girlfriend might be going anyways. might as well join in and ride his van full of people going on the same place lmao. we're like a total of 6 people i think O_o. wow.

ANYWAYS....COSPLAY!!!
i wanna cosplay as L. haha...supper cheap cosplaying here people. that's all i can think as of now. haha..cuz i only have 2 weeks to prepare for cosplaying and i can't go, do and cram sophisticated and expensive made costumes...so why not do my beloved L! nyahahhahaha! i just need to experiment on the hair part >.< so i'm gonna cut my hair...hopefully by this weekend. then gel it! i can't find any hair wax so i gotta deal with my bro's gel ~_~. sigh....or might as well buy that super gel (ha...ha...ha...call it super hair glue >.> lmao).

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! *____*
>shock< gtg study SAT's ;o; pray for me that i may pass. and hopefully i won't die and hopefully i'll still be able to go to college.

matta ne!

All the troubles just for Grendel

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 03:17:28 GMT

FINALLY!
Me and dad finally found a bookstore where there are still copies of Grendel novels left.

Yesterday we spent 2.5 hours going to 4 bookstores, and unfortunately we found out that they ran out of copies of Grendel. Firstly we went to half price bookstore at westheimer so we could have the prive of the book cut in half rather than buying at Barnes & Nobles (which prolly cost twice or trice the price in HPBS >.o). Then they told us they ran out of it. Then we hit the road again and went to the other HPBS branch. After that we went to two Barnes & Nobles branches, but they don't have any stock of it either ~_~.

That night i have to study for a major test in pre-cal (scaaarrryyyy ;o; i hope i passed that test), and slept at 1 am @_@. i can barely move when my cellp's alarm went on at 5. @_@ i snoozed it and woke up at 6. GOSH! that was the fastest shortened morning routine i ever done. @_@ argh.

So yeah. went to school, had a slightly OK day ~_~....psssshhh..... and took that pre-cal test ;o;. Finally went home and slacked infront of the comp wasting time! yesh....i wasted study time >.o but then after that i finally learned how to do and balance redox equations in chem2. although i'm still a bit lost in the other rounds of balancing chemical equations ~_~ (stupid rules! *domo*).

I wated for dad to get home and we went to Borders to seek the annoying book named GRENDEL. >.o Fortunately we found it, AT LAST! 9_9
lol. it was fun going there, i mean going inside Borders and running away from my dad to go to the arts section to look for manga, anime, and digital tutorials (didn't find digital ones @_@ i forgot that those were at the computer section >.o). Didn't buy any either, cuz i only have 7 bucks with me ;o; ...i'm poor (it's been 3 months without any allowance....i just got this money from the leftover payments that my mom gave me for school dues *snicker*). oh well....stuff like those are so damnly (word?) expensive ~_~ 20 bucks is the lowest price. BLAH!

*sigh* and i still don't have spending money for oni-con. and OH YEAH! hopefully my classmate in drawing 2 would really descide to go with us so he could take us there with his car! yay! XD HOPEFULLY *crosses fingers*

now... i need to study and read "The Seafarer" and "Grendel"
>.o ack! pre-cal HW! i totally forgot about that ;o; ...time to procrastinate.....fcuk.

busy busy busy busy busy.....i want to draw............more!

[note to myself: you haven't studied much for the SAT's. now your totally fucked up. but yeah. DO YOUR BEST! ;o; it's your fault for not having time to work on SAT practices and spending more time on HW and projects! wah!]

ONI CON!!!!

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 04:05:01 GMT

*GAAASSSPPP*
damn it. i didn't have the chance to go to last year's shiokaze con, here in houston's annual anime convention. AGH! and now this coming OCTOBER 20-22, there's going to be another convention, ONI CON! wheee!!! i just need a ride and i'm good to go. and *cough* oh *cough* money *cough* hahaha... ~_~ i hope i get my money from my mom. gah! it's sooooo boring (not really) and/or not really good, if you don't have money when you go to conventions....seriously. >.< and yeah, hopefully i can get that amount of money in my mind when i go to oni con. *crosses fingers*

man...i do hope, and wish, and pray that i could go to this convention!!! GAAHHH!!!!

i can't cosplay though, i don't have time to do my own costume ;o; sad....oh well...maybe when i'm in college next year (if i will be =/) i'll be still going to annual anime cons Xd cuz it's just here in houston! lol. i'll be either applying on University of Houston or Art Institute of Houston XD munyahahahaha. (although i really want to go to california, but oh well, life sucks...money sucks more....damn money XP DAMN IT! DAMN IT TO HELL!! why is it even created!? f.u.....ok calm down awi...XP)

AHHHH!!! and there's some panels for yaoi and yuri stuff..damn you need to be of certain fucking age....;o; nooooooooo!!!! prolly gonna be 18 and above....hope not XD they should make it 16 and up damn it! muwahahahaha!!! and i saw a hentai panel too......lmao. you need to be 18 to go there. not that i want to go. i'm just saying. lol. plus! they also have a live new j-rock band concert! wheeee!!! i really wana go now. hahaha.....and also they have a fucking awsome weapon shop. XD although i know the stuff that tey're gonna sell there are so fing expensive ~_~ (damn money) well if you guys wanna ceck it out i think theire site was: www.oni-con.com

KYAAAAAAAA!!! *calms down* i shouldn't be hyper, i counld really hope that much, cuz if i do and do ge hyper as well, i know things woulnd't go as i planned (as if anything i planned did go right >.>) psssshhh........but still! ;o; i'm gonna cry if i don't fucking go AGAIN!

life will be so sucking....

anyways....

omg....it's 11 pm and i haven't started to seriously review my pre-cal notes...i'm dead.....the test will be on oct. 4. x____x dear lord, help me concentrate. shooo! oni con fantasies. leave me alone for a while.

bleh...

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 03:46:51 GMT

i'm simply down.......fcuking emo-tions... >.> i shouldn't be granted any.

anti-socialism and timidness wouldn't make me go anywhere...

why the hell?

fcuk i don't know...

and i'm not making sense now....

might as well go and let my brain have a rest...which it wouldn't >.>

What a day.....

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 04:50:53 GMT

darn, yesterday-friday-all i did was chill, then at night i drew one of my practice sketches for my project. here's the outcome, i'd like to share it with ya'll...go to: www.xanga.com/awi_nishiki

then yeah. took me about 3.5 to 4 hours doing it. no grids, just plain observation; used HB lead, mechanical pencil 0.5, edited levels on PS7.

then read a couple of doujins and fanfiction, at LAST! for a very long time of not having to read those stuff. >.o dang.

so yeah. slept at 1 30am ish (reading fanfiction and doujins), when i was reading a Y ff, mom and dad kept on coming in and out of my room to check me. wth....i felt like they knew i read those. >.o it was sooo weird, cuz they also kept eyeing me...in a weird way O_o. but anyways.......

TODAY
i felt like i wasted time doing my simple chemistry project. darn. time flied soooo friggin fast >.<
i should've reviewd my stoichiometry notea and practiced problems. but noooooo.....time was running out and i was there infront of the computer doing my chem project, and drawing it in a small sheet of paper, and trying to figure out how my teacher would like it, and shit like that @_@ darn it. well....i was kinda multi-tasking at the moment as well: doing the project, contacting people online, and babusitting PJ ~_~.

then in the afternoon, me, pj, and my rents are supposed to go to Micheal's to buy a decent ruler (since my dad's "engineer's" ruler was so distorted >.>), but then my dad decided to go to Wal mart to change the old car's oil. so it took us about 2 hours waiting for the oil to be changed and stuff. me, pj, and my mom just went inside Wal mart to look at stuff. I bought granny boxer briefs for stu. co. and a cute winged star necklace...then yeah. PJ was balistic! he kept on running, and falling, and he skided (sp?). but anyways.

At Micheal's i really want to buy the technical pen, since i'm already there, but my mom doesn't want to pay for it, and told me i only needed the ruler...>.< nuuuuuu...i want my technical pen!!!! i've been waiting for months now. and they always tell me "next time we'll buy it". but that "next time" is a super long ass time. ~_~ oh well....

i just hope they'll keep> they're promises (which i doubt) that they'll buy my that tech pen and my tablet. . .hopefully. TT___TT and besides i don't get any allowances anyways ;o; darn. but i think it basically means that i'm stacking up money somewhere in my mom's wallet. lmao.so i'm using thatmoney to buy my tablet. ^_^

ok...it's almost 12 am....i should study at least a couple of things before i sleep @_@.....

i really need time management......

chem2 and pre-cal...

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 04:15:43 GMT

@_@
ZOMG!
those two subjects are killing me!!! >.o
don't wanna die from it! nuuuuuuu!!!
no matter how hard i try i just can't stay focus!
no matter how many times i memorize it, it doesn't matter.
no matter how many hours i spent practicing solving equations and chemicals, and stoichiometry, it doesn't matter either!

CUZ I DO NOT HAVE A CLUE WHY DOESN'T MY STUDY PATTERNS AND HABITS WORK ON ME!!!! wth!?
i'm brain dead. ;o;
i don't wanna fail those two classes.
>.o
for real.
i think i need a study buddy. i can't do it all by myself and do self-study when i don't even have any friggin clue what i am doing.
~_~

*sigh* and another thing....
SAT...omg.....i'm dead.

face it awi...your going to AI instead of a university
;o;
WHYYY!!!!!?????
*cries*
am i that dumb!?

TT^TT

Yesterday...

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 15:36:46 GMT

...was soooooo blah! I procrastinated and BS 2 essays for english...and it's not fun at all... @_@ thanks for me for forgetting to do it last night ~_~, i was doing my projects and tried to study for 3 tests. yay...go me. .___.

thenn at school. i was water deprived, cuz i forgot to bring my water bottle, and i didn't have time to even go to the vending machines and wait in the line! cuz i have 2 major test after lunch and in the middle of lunch (since i have B lunch this year, my 5th period is cut in half).

I think i did good on the pre-cal test. I SHOULD DO GOOD! i've been studying the notes for about a week and memorizing everything! Same with chem 2: Stoichiometry. eventually, my chem2 teacher announced that we'll be testing on monday...so ...yay? hopefully i won't forget the things i've memorized @_@ having short-term memory sucks...~_~ i'm getting old fast....

As for SAT, hopefully i won't DIE, cuz i haven't really started a real serious review for it...and i only have about 3 weeks left how BS is that? Plus, i even haven't started to draw for my portrait portofolio, and my models are waiting for their pics to be drawn ;o; (sorry guys...ya'll have to wait a bit), school workload crap kept me soooo busy.

English Project (video) was fun....yeah ^_^ ....but sometime i just feel a little bit out of place with my groupmates...
personally...i hate group work XP....well not unless you have a good relationship with your group, it's all good =/

SO TODAY...

almost got late to chem lab >.<
saw my class rank ;-; i'm sad about it...but i understand why i got that number, mainly because the school i'm in now didn't accept all of my credits (FREAKIN A! >:C )so yeah....

119/505+ meeehhhhhh....not even on the top 10 percent (50/505+) *sigh* , i think i'm on the 20+ percentile.....i want to get closer to at least at the 70's or 80's rank.....=/

kz....
that's it for today.
gotta do "serious" work. ~_~ go me.....

NOTE:I FINALLY HAVE MY DSL BACK!!!! it's been a long while. *hugs CPU* lmao.

Shitty

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 01:52:35 GMT

BLAH!
what a 'good' day to procrastinate....not! freakin A! i'm gonna die. j.k. i'm being random.......??*sigh*

w/e

sayonara....